I am very disappointed in myself at the moment. I gained 2 pounds. I knew this would happen considering my inactivity and my increase in appetite, but it was nontheless depressing when I stepped on the scale this morning.
To give a little bit of "history" I was diagnosed with Body Dismorphyic Disorder a couple of years back. After looking into the disorder myself (since my doctor failed to give me any information on it at all) I found that some of my behavior does match that of someone who suffers from BDD, but I don't think I actually have it. Yes, I admit I am overly critical of myself. I am never happy with my appearance and always find something wrong with it. I also do isolate myself from time to time because I don't want people to see me. And I switch from looking in the mirror every 2 minutes to avoiding my reflection for weeks. But that's all women, right?
Anyways I have been sick for a couple of days. Headache, sore throat, sneezing and coughing. Typical weather change cold symptoms. Due to me feeling less than spectacular I have stopped my workouts and have been eating a little less than favorably. By less than favorably I mean I ate pizza twice this week (a no-no when you are sick anyways) and portions that are larger than my normal allowance. So today I step on the scale and find that I have gained 2 pounds. I am more angry at myself than shocked. I usually lose weight when I am sick because even though I do nothing and stay in bed any time possible, I also hardly eat. This time I ate (apparently too much.)
So my resolution now that I am starting to feel on the up side again is to start working out as soon as I can do five minutes on a treadmill without hacking a lung up, and to drastically cut my calories. I have a total of 44 days until my hunny comes home and I am bound and determined to reach my goal weight of 125 by then. That is now 14 pounds away. So I need to stock up on rice cakes, cottage cheese, and fresh produce. No more soda, sweets (other than natural), or cheats like chips and dip, pizza, or fast food of any kind. I am going to resume the behavior which resulted in my husband giving me the loving nickname of calorie nazi.
To give a little bit of "history" I was diagnosed with Body Dismorphyic Disorder a couple of years back. After looking into the disorder myself (since my doctor failed to give me any information on it at all) I found that some of my behavior does match that of someone who suffers from BDD, but I don't think I actually have it. Yes, I admit I am overly critical of myself. I am never happy with my appearance and always find something wrong with it. I also do isolate myself from time to time because I don't want people to see me. And I switch from looking in the mirror every 2 minutes to avoiding my reflection for weeks. But that's all women, right?
Anyways I have been sick for a couple of days. Headache, sore throat, sneezing and coughing. Typical weather change cold symptoms. Due to me feeling less than spectacular I have stopped my workouts and have been eating a little less than favorably. By less than favorably I mean I ate pizza twice this week (a no-no when you are sick anyways) and portions that are larger than my normal allowance. So today I step on the scale and find that I have gained 2 pounds. I am more angry at myself than shocked. I usually lose weight when I am sick because even though I do nothing and stay in bed any time possible, I also hardly eat. This time I ate (apparently too much.)
So my resolution now that I am starting to feel on the up side again is to start working out as soon as I can do five minutes on a treadmill without hacking a lung up, and to drastically cut my calories. I have a total of 44 days until my hunny comes home and I am bound and determined to reach my goal weight of 125 by then. That is now 14 pounds away. So I need to stock up on rice cakes, cottage cheese, and fresh produce. No more soda, sweets (other than natural), or cheats like chips and dip, pizza, or fast food of any kind. I am going to resume the behavior which resulted in my husband giving me the loving nickname of calorie nazi.
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